Wednesday, 12 April 2017

13 Reasons Why: Book vs Netflix

Since I recently started talking about my mental problems, openly, it felt like a good idea to discuss this book and TV series as well. For the purpose of this review, I thought it might be a good idea to include my initial review on the book from November 2014. But before I do that, I want to briefly introduce you to the concept of 13 Reasons Why  by Jay Asher. It is about Hannah Baker and Clay Jenkins (mostly). Hannah Baker has killed herself, but before doing so she made 13 audiotapes, on which she explains her 13 reasons why. Each tape is about a specific person or event that happened in her life that evidently 'caused' her to kill herself. She has set a plan in place. Starting with the first tape/person. Each person included has to listen to all 13 tapes and then pass them on to the next person, on the next tape. Until it finally gets to Clay, our protagonist, who is/was in love with Hannah. This is what it comes down to in both the book and the Netflix Series. My initial review on the book goes as follows:

Clay is number 8 on this list. 7 people have heard her talk before him. While going through the tapes and the reasons, he keeps wondering why he is on this list. He doesn’t feel like he ever did her any harm. I hated Hannah for putting him through this. This boy, you learn to know as such a sweet guy. I couldn’t imagine that he, like the other people she talks about, did something horrible to her.

I thought I was going to have a hard time while reading this book, but that didn’t happen. The actual event is not mentioned in the book because by that point she is gone and she can no longer tell Clay, or the others, about it. The book consisted of hate and anger. She blamed everything and everyone for what had happened to her. She was somewhat right on most points. It is the circumstances and what people did/do to you, talk about behind your back, but we let it influence us. In a way that we let it beat us down, but also in the way that we listen to what people say about others. Clay was scared of approaching Hannah and telling her how he felt because he thought the rumours might be true. Even though he knew her better than that, he knew the real Hannah.

I think the writer means to teach the reader about consequences. That we don’t always realise what our actions and words do to others and mostly that is true. We sometimes don't consider what someone else might be going through when we say things to them and vice versa. Like bullies who have a hard time at home and therefore lash out at someone else. We all have our reasons. We all have issues and hard times. Why does she give up? I don’t know. I guess she lost hope.

In the Netflix series, things are a bit different because the other characters get a lot more screen time. We get to know the other characters, their lives, their stories. But also we get to see Hannah, what happened and what she did (quite vividly I might add). It's quite heavy and the way I look at it, it really took its time with this story. The cinematography was amazing, the music was good, as was the acting. However, they sometimes sat on one thing for far too long. I understand why they did it the way they did, 13 episodes for 13 tapes, but at that point it took longer to watch the series than it did to read the actual book (because each episode was between 50 and 60 minutes). It got frustrating at times.

At this point it seems as though they might want to do a season 2. There are a lot of things left unfinished. I hope they do, because the ending ... pfff. Nevertheless, I really appreciate that this is out there now. That people are talking about 13 Reasons Why. It's an important issue. Very important. It's a big problem, that is often not taken seriously, as also shown in the series. I could have gone without some of the visuals, but I guess they need to be there. It's a serious issue and that's really emphasised by all of this. Also, I think sometimes our society only really pays attention when things are shocking or extreme. But that might be too much of a generalisation. Of course I hope that others will also read or watch this story. However I do want to warn anyone who is thinking about watching it: it's really honest, and with it quite rough. 

There has been a lot of critique on the story, how it romanticises mental illness and suicide. How it is an insult to people who have mental problems. I saw an article that said "Suicide isn't cause by other people", "suicide is caused by mental illness, not bullying" and "a real-life Hannah Baker would not commit suicide - because Hannah Baker is not mentally ill" (Serena Smith in "13 Reasons Why is an insult to anyone with mental health issues"). I strongly disagree. Every single case is different. I'm still on anti-depressants and I never even considered this show or book, to be an insult, not even a little bit. And really, bullying is not a factor? Do some research before you make a statement like that. Some cases of bullying are so intense and severe that yes, it may have caused suicide for some people. Especially if the bullying goes hand in hand with sexual assault. And can you then still say that it's not caused by other people? I don't think so... bullying is a big problem. That being said, stating that "we all killed Hannah Baker" goes too far. She made the choice to kill herself. She may have felt that way, but there are two sides to every story.

Mental illness and suicide do go hand in hand sometimes, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't happen when mental illness isn't recognised. We see the story through other people. Just because Clay did not pick up on the signs does not mean they weren't there. Hannah clearly went through some difficulties. The reason it so difficult to recognise is because each and every single case is slightly different. Sure there are a few key symptoms, but what works for one person does not work for another. I think saying that 13 Reasons Why is an insult, is more of an insult than the actual book or series. It's just the tip of the iceberg. What helps me on a day to day basis, still, is the following: suicide does not solve the problem, it just passes the problem on to someone else. And I think that's very vividly shown in this series. So I appreciate it. Even if it's not perfect, but then again, who/what is?

Thursday, 6 April 2017

What I've been up to

Last time I posted anything on this blog, was about three months ago. Sorry guys, I guess I've been a bit preoccupied. But here I am! I won't say I'm back, because in a few weeks I'm going to be taking on an extra course (again) so uni will keep me busy, but I will try to write more. I promise. So what have I been up to that has caused be to not write here? Basically, I've been reading, a lot. Due to uni I haven't been able to do so for awhile, for pleasure at least, and I finally got around to reading some books I've been dying to read. 
    • Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Sáenz
    • The Chemist by Meyer
    • Hero of Ages by Sanderson
    • Furthermore by Mafi
    • Dubliners by Joyce
    • Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy by Clare
    • Caraval by Garber
    • Northern Lights by Pullman
    • And I re-read Maas' A Court of Thorns and Roses
    • And A Court of Mist and Fury (twice).
I've got to be honest, not all of them were well received - Caraval for example, felt like I was re-experiencing The Game (the film) and I did not like that experience the first time, let alone the second time around, but that's just my opinion. The Chemist felt like I was re-reading twilight with a twist, but I really enjoyed it nevertheless, didn't expect that of Meyer, but then again. I really enjoy the suspense she works into her stories. 

I particularly enjoyed the first book on this list. It's a captivating story, just a story of two teenagers, best friends, and life in 1987. It's heartbreaking because it's easy to relate to (no matter your gender, race or sexual preference). I fear that if I talk about it too much, I will spoil the plot. It was especially interesting for me, because it is nothing like my life: I'm white, female and I guess I'd qualify as heterosexual when asked to put myself in a box. I'd rather not put myself in a box, though. And this is a story about two males, partly Mexican, otherwise American. Anyways, I feel like anything I can say about it will just take away from the amazingness that it Aristotle and Dante, so here's the synopsis:
Dante can swim. Ari can't. Dante is articulate and self-assured. Ari has a hard time with words and suffers from self-doubt. Dante gets lost in poetry and art. Ari gets lost in thoughts of his older brother who is in prison. Dante is fair skinned. Ari's features are much darker. It seems that a boy like Dante, with his open and unique perspective on life, would be the last person to break down the walls that Ari has built around himself.

But against all odds, when Ari and Dante meet, they develop a special bond that will teach them the most important truths of their lives, and help define the people they want to be. But there are big hurdles in their way, and only by believing in each other - and the power of their friendship - can Ari and Dante emerge stronger on the other side.
Another reason I've been kind off distracted lately is because I've picked up writing again, and I don't mean on my blog (clearly) but I mean on a story I've been developing for quite some time now. This won't tell you anything because, well, I can't really tell you much about it other than the fact that it's very close to my heart. But the fact that I'm writing again, really says something about my mental state. I've had years where I barely wrote anything (blog or otherwise) because I didn't think there was a point to it. Yet here I am, writing again. It makes me happy.

I've also been preoccupied with TV shows, but then again, who isn't. I've recently finished watching The Vampire Diaries, Revenge (though to be completely honest, it's not that I've finished watching it, but rather I decided that I was done with it), Sherlock and Switched at Birth is also coming to an end next week. Come to think of it ... Game of Thrones is also coming to an end this year... In the mean time I've picked up watching 13 Reasons Why, Westworld and The Originals (there was a vampire-diaries-shaped-hole in my chest, so naturally, I filled it with the next best thing). I'm also still watching Once Upon A Time, Shadowhunters, Friends (for the .. I don't know how manieth time), Modern Family and Grey's Anatomy.  I'm still waiting for the next season of Orange is the New Black. I really want to pick up Stranger Things as well, but realised that the next season won't come out until October so I figured I'll just watch it then. Did I miss anything? Probably, I always do.

Another big thing that's happening in my life right now is the fact that I was selected to go to my preferred University next year. I get to go on exchange to the University of East Anglia. Again, this might not mean anything to you, but they have a very extensive and amazing creative writing program, so it's very special to me. I'm very excited and also terrified, because even if it's close, I will still be leaving home to live in a foreign country for about 4 to 5 months. But we shall she where that journey takes me. It will be a while because I decided that I want to write my thesis before going on exchange, so I will go to Norwich in January of 2018. That's it for now. Hopefully, I will write about fairy tales some time soon.

Monday, 9 January 2017

TBR 2017

In this blog entry I will address books I'm dying to read in 2017. Of course, I have about 2 shelves in my bookcases, which are filled with books I still have not read (not to mention the books I still have to read that I do not (yet) own). Here I will list 7 novels (which are on my to read list on Goodreads) I plan on reading this year. Next block (beginning of February until the first week of April) is the first time I will not have one or more literature course(s) since I started studying English, which means I might have some time to finally catch up on some reading. Especially because I thought it would be nice to have only two courses instead of my overly motivated idea of taking on an extra course (like I did in block 1 & 2).
  1. Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson: I started the Mistborn series I do not know how long ago and I never got around to reading the last novel of the trilogy. At this point I probably have to re-read the other two books before I will be able to read the last novel but I really really really want to read it as soon as possible (probably in the last week of January, I think). 
  2.  Atonement by Ian McEwan: I was in Perth (Australia) in the beginning of 2013. One day my aunt and her husband took me to a town called Fremantle, for some fish and chips. It so happens that there was a rather cute second-hand bookshop in this particular town. I saw this novel and was obsessed with the note that was put onto it by one of booksellers. I had previously seen the film (because I love James McAvoy) and thus my aunt bought this book for me. However, I have never gotten around to reading it simply because I had already seen the film.. but I'm taking a course on cinematography this year in which this novel will be discussed so I will officially have no choice but to read this book.
  3. Falling for a Dancer by Deirdre Purcell: When I was still a little girl (well not really a little girl, I must have been 14 or something), I once ran out of books to read during a vacation in France. I borrowed a book from one of my mom's friends and it turned out to be this particular novel. However, when I later tried to find this novel (because I rather enjoyed it), I could not find it anywhere because I read it in Dutch. Turns out it's no longer available in bookshops, but I was able to buy it second-hand. I'm really excited about reading this novel in English though.
  4.  A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens: I read Hard Times (by Dickens) last year (for one of my courses) and I enjoyed it. For any of you who don't know, I own a small Charles Dickens collection. They are absolutely beautiful and I would never ever take them anywhere because they are quite fragile. This means that it's quite difficult to read these novels. Nevertheless, ever since I read The Infernal Devices by Cassandra Clare, I've been wanting to read this particular novel. 
  5. A Reluctant Empress by Brigitte Hamann: In the summer of 2015, Fabian and I went to Vienna for a few days and visited the royal apartments in the city as well as the summer residence Schonbrunn, of empress Elisabeth of Austria (and her husband Franz Joseph I). It is said that the situation around her and her son's death is what initially caused the first world war (because someone killed the guy who was appointed to take the thrown after Franz Joseph). However this is not the reason I really want to read this novel. As an 8-year-old girl my mom took me to see the musical Elisabeth in Scheveningen and ever since I have been sort of obsessed with her. She has a rather tragic story and even though I already know a lot about her, I want to know more.
  6. Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson: As a kid I absolutely loved the film Treasure Planet in which a young male goes on a journey with a group of space-pirates in search of a gigantic treasure. Needless to say, this film is losely based on this particular book. I found a beautiful edition of the novel in my local bookshop and since then this novel is definitely super high on my list.
  7.  The Chemist by Stephenie Meyer: As a teen I was in love with Twilight (who wasn't right... uch..) and I am not ashamed to say that I would probably still enjoy the novels if it wasn't for the fact that I don't own the first three novels in English (nor am I planning on buying them in English). However, I always loved Meyer's The Host loads more than I ever liked Twilight, which is why I am really really interested in reading this novel because I want to see whether it's like Twilight or The Host in anyway and whether or not Meyer has grown in her writing. Please don't judge me 😀

Monday, 2 January 2017

Reflecting on 2016

I almost feel silly doing this because everyone is doing this. Nevertheless, it suits my blog to talk about my 2016. Overall, it was an interesting years. A lot of awful things happened in the world, but for me it has been a pretty good year. I made a lot of important choices and steps; especially the latter half of the year was really good to me. I have a few notes on my wall (ever since I moved in here) which have goals on them and through the course of this year I was finally able to take a few off. So maybe it's appropriate to talk about the things I achieved this year.
  • I finally wrote about the fairy tales of the Grimm brothers. Not as much as I may have planned but I did manage to include Hans Christian Andersen (among others) and I'm quite enjoying it.
  • I sufficiently completed my first year of university!
  • I applied for the University of East Anglia. I want to study aboard for a few months during my bachelor and I was able to apply. This doesn't mean I will be selected for this particular school and I'm super scared but it will be a good and exciting experience.
  • I have improved my sleeping pattern. I'm still struggling with it a tat of course but still, most nights I sleep around 8 hours, which used to be around 5 hours a night. I'm pretty happy about this because it has greatly improved my grades.
  • I sufficiently completed therapy.
  • I finally got to see The Phantom of the Opera (may seem like a silly accomplishment but it's huge to me).
  • I bought new bookcases because my books no longer fit into my old ones, which is an accomplishment because I'm working towards my own personal library.
  • I can cook! I still don't like it but I can do it (and by that I mean I am no longer scared something will go wrong if I have more than one pan on the stove).
Of course I still have a few things I want to accomplish in the following year(s) and I'm not really good at keeping up with resolutions but I can still try right. So here are some things I still want to do/accomplish:
  • Like last year, I want to watch as many Oscar Nominated films as possible before the actual Academy Awards, simply because I want to be able to discuss the nominations and winners with my brother. In order for my opinions to be valid, I have to watch the films we are talking about).
  • Finish my book. I've had this on my list for a loooong time, but this year I want to make it happen. It's been on hold of so long because I started writing back when my English was not as easy to me as it may be now so whenever I start working on it I close it again because the use of English makes me cringe. BUT! I feel like 2017 is the year.
  • Improve the way I consume food. May seem like a silly resolution but dude, .. I love anything sweet and I don't particularly enjoy cooking. I never order food (because it's expensive to order food and I waste all my money on books) so it's not that I eat a lot of junk food or anything.. 
  • Find a way to enjoy exercising again. I used to love dancing and exercising, but recently I've been slacking at it a little bit. Simply because, in my opinion, I have better things to do with my time (like study and read).
That's basically it. Happy new year everybody and let's make it a good one :) At least this year is so far so good. Going to Brugge tomorrow and I'm really excited about it. Hope to provide you guys with something useful about fairy tales on Thursday but it might not happen due to Brugge or studying :)